Can your best friend be your first love?

I had a crush on my best friend when I was younger. I am just now coming to the conclusion that he was my first love. From my perspective he never really felt the same way about me but then again I never had enough courage to ask him. We talked on the phone for hours at a time, sat together at lunch and hed even make his other friends come sit with us so we could sit together, and we did have off and on flirting. He always wanted to hang out with me, and he included me in everything that he'd do. He would ask my advice on girls, it bothered me but of course I never told him. Whenever I would have a boyfriend he would automatically hate him, even when the guy didn't do anything wrong. I told him I loved him one night as a drunken blurt, and he said he loved me too but I don't think he meant the same way I meant. People would always ask us why we didnt date, and I would be quick to say that we were like brother and sister because I was afraid he'd say something I didnt want to hear, but he never said anything when anyone asked. He would always tell me I was pretty and tell my compliments when I was down about something in my life. By the time I finally had the courage to tell him it was too late. He began to date one of my best friends who had liked him for years. I decided to be the better person and not say anything although it bothered me alot. When they were together around me he would make it a point to be all over her and just look at me. I began to stop answering his phone calls and ignore him becuase I didnt want to be around. We drifted apart and everytime we see each other its always an awkward stare. I recently contacted him and gave him my phone number, and every now and then he invites me out. I have a boyfriend, and everyone knows I do, but he never invites him out with us to group outings. I have yet to actually have the courage to hang out with him because Im afraid to. I guess the real question is, what was going on? Maybe someone from an outside stand point will be able to shine light on the subject.Can your best friend be your first love?I'd say first love, yeah.Can your best friend be your first love?yes of course they can as best friends would be closer to each other than a random boy/girl you meet they would know alot about ech other and would be like starting on the 6th date i seriously suggest you tell him how you feel you will never know how he feels till you ask him.Can your best friend be your first love?omg ,stop writing so much please :/