I think I'm in love with one of my co-workers. It is really killing me. I feel so bad right now I feel like

crying. I have been good friends with one of my co-workers now for about 4 months. We have gotten to know each other really well and recently we made out. Then we decided it wasn't a good idea for us to be together because I am the VP of my company and one of his superiors. The other day we spent time together again and we went a little further than making out. Now I feel so awkward and I can tell he does too. On top of it I want to keep things going secretly (the people at our work are very gossipy), but he says its not a good idea and that everytime we do stuff he feels really depressed because he likes me so much. Now he is avoiding me and I can tell he is depressed or mad. I'm starting to think he doesn't like me anymore and that he was using me for sex. But he says things like 'I'm pretty sure I'd follow you a long way.' and gives me eskimo kisses. Does this sound like something someone who was using you for a one night stand would do? I am so confused.I think I'm in love with one of my co-workers. It is really killing me. I feel so bad right now I feel likeHe wants you. All office things like you describe will end badly if they are secret. It is not smart in general. I would suggest one of you get a new job if you are really serious about getting together.